He said it over and over, guard yourself with thy tongue and i never could have imagined what he meant or where it could have hailed from. On that Saturday that fight and exchange of words came but with little or no course for any of my loved once being dragged into it, but it happened.
For the first time in my life i didnt feel pained because i knew i was dealing with persons rather irrelevant i must say because your words define you. Am not saying your words define you because am a writter, but i know that no matter how upset i get i always have found a way to manage my words, carve my sentence and spice the emotions i wanted perceived around it.
It flew quickly past and i had no reason to worry that some persons i refer to as lost souls tried to get to me emotionally. But the rather peircing event which has left me lost for words and has inspired this write, was a recent outburst of a full fleshed human who would be mistakenly refered to in our society of today as a gentle man and a responsible Father.
I am not a feminist but have always believed in equal rights for all gender in as much as the society we live in does not embrace it, and i have no better understanding but to call it insecurities.
A person who you called your confidant, your best friend and your closet to bossom as girls would put it, did not hesitate to empty his reserved drum of awful words. As he began on the 4th of November at 6pm via messages and didnt give up on using rather demoralizing words until he finally took to using things i had told him about myself in confidant against me and still will not give up when he reminded me of my place in the world as a child without a Father (bastard). This self claimed gentle man wasnt through with me until 5:30am on the 5th of November, the next morning.
I have had series of relationships in my life but i have never been rubbished by the one and same person who called himself my Lover and best friend.
These actions would be ropped around I hiring him a foot soldier on a project we both handled and for some reason he had felt rather insecure and less of himself or probably was just unable to manage his temper and so had accused me of coniving with this said foot soldier who had been working on the project from the begining.
He also said with the understanding that we may have something going between us and further called me a criminal even after a total of 2.395,000 Naira had been refunded with an outstanding balance of 105,000 Naira. The young man was in all clearification scared off by this man and at such got apprehensive, even though i am totally not in support of him withholding peoples money in such a manner without proper accountability to his expensis.
I remain silent about this matter and at such have decided to write this down for future referals.
Finally it turned out to be that the one reason he had insisted i guard myself is because he was the very weapon waiting to throw itself at me, just as given to keep confidencially.
Dear readers, Dont be suprised if you step out your door and a lizard chases you around, cause the society we live in presently, the corrupt call them selves tactical and refer to you the upright ones as corrupt.
Story as told by WENZE-S-W
Written by Silviana Writes
(Indirect-Writes)
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